God has been calling me to write about FAITH for a while now. It was shortly after I finished my book, Bali Girl that I realized how much ‘faith’ factored in my journey. God asked me, a single mother to go to Indonesia. If God asks us to go somewhere, he will move mountains to get us there. He made it possible for me to leave my son and my business, so I could go on the other side of the world. I went knowing that it was ‘God Lead’. If God wanted me there… everything that would come from it would be to His glory. Did I question it? Did I factor in my security as a woman in a predominately Muslim country? Did I weigh the positives and negatives? Yes, it’s human nature to bring in logic, not faith while making life altering decisions. Summarizing my thought process, I ultimately came to the conclusion that if something was to happen to me while I was there; whether it was being kidnapped, raped or beheaded… that it would somehow be used by God; whether in the story that would be spread worldwide or the people’s lives within the story… either way, when God uses us… He uses us for His purpose. Of course it’s scary to think that I could be used in that kind of way. When I look at the Bible, there are so many people who took steps of faith by following what God wanted of them and look how it’s being used hundreds of years later… what if my story were to be like that? How could I pass up on such an opportunity? And that’s the worst case, the best case is that I go to Indonesia and minister to lots of people, bringing them closer to Christ. How could I not say yes to God?
A few days before leaving, God told me that something would happen to me but I would be okay. Now, I’m not saying that this would happen to everyone but I believe that God was preparing me for what was about to happen because He knew I had little faith, my faith muscle was very small. But at this point, I was determined to go on the trip, it was so clear that God wanted me there. I was excited to see what He was going to have me do…. Change lives, bring women and children to God? The possibilities were endless. I was even excited about the flight, thinking that God wanted to use me during the flight and in the airports… I took this opportunity to a whole new level.
Little did I know that once we arrived into our host families home that I was hours away from a life changing moment. During a team building exercise, I broke my back. I had no idea that it was a compression burst fracture of the T10, so I continued my trip for two days, thinking that the pain would go away. After being airlifted to a hospital in Bali, five hundred miles from where I had been; doctors told me that I was paralyzed. I couldn’t believe it, how could I be paralyzed when I had been walking for two days after the accident? The CT, MRI and x-ray proved the doctors to be right but my physical movement proved them to be wrong. How can that be? I’d like to say, faith. Although my back was broken my faith was getting stronger. I’d like to say that God used those moments, even my story now to this day… as opportunities to bring skeptics closer to Christ. Will I ever know the impact, probably not but I might have taken any one of those doctors from a negative ten to a negative 5 on a scale of negative ten, not believing in God; to a ten, following God on a daily basis.
My faith story doesn’t quite stop there. I was blessed with an opportunity to build my faith muscle even more. While I was back home after surgery, recovering in a body cast and a hospital bed… God asked me to write a book. I had a lot on my plate as it was already, the thought of spending time writing a book that may never get published, was terrifying. Again, human nature kicked in and logic became a factor but this time, just for a second because my faith took over. God asked me to write, He asked me to share my story because it would change many lives… He didn’t say how it would change lives or when, heck it could have been years from now when my great-grandchild dusted off the manuscript. Why would I waste my time writing when I could be doing something else in helping speed up my recovery? But the real question is, how could I not listen to God and do what He asked of me? He has done everything He promised me… something happened to me but I was OKAY. He saved me from death and even paralysis, how could I not trust him? I took the leap of faith and wrote my book, Bali Girl. I finished writing my book within eight months, at which point it went to editing and it was published three months later… now that’s a God thing. I didn’t know if it would ever be published, but as I wrote, I stayed focused on what God wanted from me. Luckily, it was His plan to publish it in my life time. God has been at the center of every decision I make because I’ve realized that if He’s directing me, I can’t ever go wrong. Follow me along my faith journey or share your journey with me.